Change is…Good?

Hello hello hello!!

It’s been awhile since I wrote a really personal post. I’ve been going back and forth about this one. I was wondering how much I could share kasi without getting into trouble haha 😛

The thing is, there was a major upheaval for the last half of my 2016. I left my job of 14 years to move to a new company and to lead a new team. I started my new job last July and I am still transitioning. I am still in flux and in a constant state of evaluating my choices.

Leaving a company that I have been in for 14 years is HARD. It’s challenging to say goodbye to people who you grew up with career wise and who have known a part of you for more than a decade. The inertia is really hard to fight mentally. I had to battle with leaving my comfort zone to dive into unfamiliar territories.

At that moment when I made my decision to move, I used Coach Pia’s DYC. At that moment I knew that the change would benefit my family financially. The benefits in my new company are also very generous. I thought about it and said yes. I made the decision freely and I was excited and scared at the same time.

At that moment, the decision I made was the best one I could make for myself and my family.

5 months into this new job though, I feel tired, almost burned out even. I have very full days that I even forget to have lunch some time  and when I come home I have calls that last until 12-12:30 at night. The work-life balance that I thought would come with this new job (because I wasn’t supposed to be in production) got lost in the haze of calls, reports and meetings.

I’m not even blogging as much as I did before and I really miss it. A lot of my personal time got eaten up by my new corporate life.

So now, I’m thinking, have I made the wrong choice? Am I on the verge of regret? I’m not sure if this new corporate lifestyle is what fits me. Should I decide on something else soon?

There are soo many questions and I have been talking to friends and Dan about the situation where I am in now. I am stressed and overwhelmed and yes I have cried over being so tired at times.

Haaay!!! I need to review my life choices. Last Christmas, my friend gave me Coach Pia’s new book “Focus on What Matters”  I need to read, re-assess and see where my next steps take me.

Change is HAAARD!! Is change always good though?