In a few days, we will be flying off to Tokyo. BDW will be there on official business and I’m tagging along on a personal trip. I paid for the ticket a few days ago (I signed a check and hoped for the best haha) and yesterday, our visas came in.
When I looked at my passport I felt anxious and excited. I was OK a few days prior to the visas being granted but I was already a bit anxious of leaving DW behind. I was able to put those thoughts at the back of my mind though because the visas weren’t granted yet and so the trip is still pending so to speak. But when we got home yesterday and I was putting DW to sleep hala, the waterworks began and I was sobbing in BDW’s arms for a good 10 minutes.
I’ve never been away for DW ever. EVER. BDW had a hard time when he went on several business trips last month. DW was with me when we dropped BDW at the airport and he told me how his heart broke when DW was shouting Dada!! Dada!! when we were waving goodbye to him.
The anxiety keeps piling up. I keep thinking, “What if DW forgets me? What if he takes this trip against me and he remembers it for the rest of his life?! What if I don’t come back??” Aaaarrrgh!!!
To moms who travelled, how did you deal with separation anxiety?? I need help!!
neva says
June 11, 2010 at 7:19 pmhi teeps, trixie, michelle|mom-friday, j, and o 🙂 thanks for all the comments and helpful suggestions. i’m feeling much better now than before. spent the whole day today with DW 🙂 he’s in good hands for sure with his lola and lola, ako lang talaga ang may issue haha!!
osangga says
June 11, 2010 at 2:29 pmHi Manilamommy! Glad to hear that you and BDW are travelling. 🙂 Parang first out of the country nyo nga yan e… And don’t worry too much about DW, he’ll be fine with his lolo and lola. Isipin mo na lang, great time din yan para sa nyo ni Dan. :)Have fun!! Bili ka ng flavored kitkats! hehe.
J says
June 11, 2010 at 12:54 pmSo sweet. Wonder if my mom had same anxieties whenever she’d leave me behind as a child hahaha.
trixie says
June 10, 2010 at 3:10 pmThey say that it’s best to do a trip when they’re still young. Kasi they can’t verbally complain and wouldn’t totally understand that you’ve been gone pala. We did our first trip when TJ was only 8 months old. 3days 2 nights lang. When we arrived home, and he saw me, he smiled the sweetest smile. And the smile stayed on his face for a while. Priceless. Parang he was so glad to see me, us. So, maybe you can make that as an inspiration. That when you come back, he’ll give you that sweetest smile to make up for the days he wasn’t able to smile at you. And you need this break. Enjoy. =)
Mom-Friday says
June 10, 2010 at 2:45 pmI’ve only traveled one time, only for 3 days, when my boy was still a toddler…and the only comfort is knowing he is in good hands with my in-laws while we are away. The guilt and anxiety will always be there but just think this “days off” will recharge you and be a better, happier mom for you kid 🙂 Enjoy your trip! Inggit ako! 😀
annavi says
June 10, 2010 at 10:58 amawww….poor DW! ulila for a week! kidding, i think it will always be hard whether its one day or one week. which is why there’s skype! you’ll be able to connect with DW and he can see his mom and dad everyday if he wants to! you can still kiss him good morning and tuck him in at night (shempre kayo na mag-a-adjust sa time diff:))!