Kindness Is….

…hard….

I have always believed in kindness. It’s a choice that I have to actively and consciously make because this week was just a big pain in the a$$!

1) 4-hour wait for Noah’s doctor

It’s not even one of Noah’s main doctors. We were in line for Noah’s pulmonologist but I had to look for another one when after 2.5 hours of waiting, the secretary informed us that the doctor will see after 2 more hours. I got up looked for another pulmonologist and found one who saw us right away. Really, why can’t doctors follow an appointment system? Noah has doctors who we have to schedule months ahead. We schedule the month, day, and time. Long story short, Noah’s lungs are clear but we have to have him tested for reflux. I am thankful that the threat of pneumonia is nowhere near Noah but the fact that we have to have another thing tested scares me again. But the doctor though was so calm about it and a friend shared with me that one of her son’s had reflux as a baby and she was calm about it so I guess I have to be….calm about the whole thing too? Ok I’ll try then…

2) Identity Theft

Saturday night, while we were all in bed and the kids have gone to sleep. I was checking Facebook when a kind reader messaged me on my blog’s FB page alerting me to a person who has stolen pics of Noah and Dan and have been posting them as pics of her son and gay friend. This person has gone to very “creative” lengths and has made collages of Noah with birthday messages and what not. This scared me and Dan!  The posts and fake accounts have all disappeared save for one. We are still chasing for information too as we consider next steps. This is surreal and awful. I am thankful for the support from friends and family and who have reported all the fake accounts in Facebook.

3) Impossible Co-Worker

It’s hard to be kind when the person you are working with is rude, obnoxious and disrespectful.  I have to really reign in my emotions because first this person is way older than me(than the team actually) and second, it’s not worth it to fight fire with fire. At least the team and my boss are in agreement that this person is an awful human being. At least we’re all protecting each other and we’re each other’s resbak. I seriously asked my boss to pray for me when I need to talk to this person because I don’t want to say or do things that I will regret for sure. Thing is, I love my job, I just don’t love dealing with this person.

For every rough time, there is always something that balances it out. A friend’s kind word, an assuring text or a hug. It is the latter that I hold on to and that I know uplifts so I have to make the conscious decision to be the person that uplifts no matter how hard. I still need to rant but I have to balance my rants with hard work, a shrug on the shoulder and peace breaths (it’s a thing I learned in a Best Buddies Yoga Event).  Sabi nga ng Dalai Lama

 

I also hear Coach Pia’s voice about staying positivity and honoring other people’s process.

Here’s hoping your week’s faring better than mine!